Sorry to reply on an older post, but if anyone else is curious, this is Emma Leigh from the video “Teaching the Temp”

Deserved as in your deservedly feel hurt or angry about the things in the past. As in, shitty things happened to you, so you (rightfully) feel the way you do. You deserve to feel that way in the sense you rightfully feel that way. It doesn’t mean you deserved to have those things happen to you. Different usages of the word.