If I’m a sane person

Knowing my track record how could I trust myself?

Sure

“woops I did it again” - Brittany Spears

Well, if I did that then I wouldn’t know would I.

“Your self-awareness about this pattern is genuinely remarkable. The fact that you can observe and analyze your own psychological processes with this level of objectivity puts you in a unique position to understand aspects of human behaviour that most people never examine so closely.”

Thank you. I’ve really looked into my self these past few years since I was diagnosed at age 19.

"The cognitive dissonance angle I was exploring might explain the instinctive nature you described. Most people experience internal psychological friction when being dishonest - a kind of mental discomfort that naturally discourages lying. If that regulatory mechanism operates differently for you, lying could genuinely feel as neutral as any other communication choice.

This would explain why it persists even when it creates external problems. Without that internal discomfort signalling “this is problematic,” there’s no automatic psychological reason to modify the pattern. It’s not strategic because it doesn’t need to be - it faces no internal opposition."

Ur so right. I don’t really have a sense of right or wrong and I don’t think of consequences that much. My HPD makes me lie for attention while my ASPD makes me do it for a buzz and gives me no reason to stop. Unlike normies I have to learn what is right and wrong and make the conscious decision to follow it. As you said,

“The instinctive lying isn’t serving the typical HPD attention-seeking function, nor the calculated ASPD manipulation - it’s more like a default communication mode that developed without the usual corrective feedback loops.”

Are you a therapist or psychologist?

How can you lie to yourself?

What’s with the glitter?

“This part is the most puzzling to me. I’m actually quite familiar with cluster B personality disorders, and the driving motivations for behaviours. Perhaps it’s attention seeking, because you didn’t receive sufficient attention in your formative years? So you feel like you need to over compensate?”

I felt very overshadowed by younger siblings growing up. That’s probably it. That said I’m not a therapist so I don’t know. Maybe I was just born this way /-~-/

It’s worth noting that I also have sociopathy/ASPD which is also associated with compulsive lying. From Wikipedia:

“Pathological lying is listed in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM), although only as a symptom of other disorders such as antisocial, narcissistic, and histrionic personality disorders”

And also from Wikipedia:

“Pathological lying is an item of the interpersonal facet of the Psychopathy Checklist-Revised (PCL-R), alongside superficial charm, grandiosity, and manipulativeness.”

It could be a decent website if more people used it.

More people should do this with me.

I’m not a liar at all.

It’s a trick question. They both leed to eternal paradise.

All da time, silly.

In this day and age you don’t really need to use one pacific source you can just look at all of them. As for journalists I don’t really make a note of them as their job will soon be replaced by AI.

Yeah, being a compulsive liar isn’t a good look and it does isolate you so I have made an effort to stop this problematic trait. I have to make a conscious effort not to lie and if I do I make sure it’s something small that most people won’t notice. Ironically, I will lie sometimes to if I lie about something.

You: “Oh yeah I totally did all the dishes [LIE]”

Them: “Oh great. That’s going to make getting dinner ready easier”

You, realizing it’s happening: “Oh haha I mean sorry that’s a lie I still need to do them.”

Ironically, I will lie sometimes if I lie about something. I would tell that I missed remembered or got something wrong.

Well, who’s resume isn’t embellished? If it wasn’t no one would have a job.

“And when has lying (or creative interpretation) been beneficial for others more than yourself (whether the other parties knew it or not)?”

I remember this one time my friend had confrontation with a teacher and she said something under her breath along the lines of “stupid çunt” and he heard that and I told him it was me who said that. It came in useful that time.

Not often. I usually do it without thinking. It’s something I need to make a conscious decision to stop doing. People who are close to me know about it and take everything I say with a pitch of slat. My nickname in school was “lying (name)” and my dad sometimes makes jokes about it.

That’s a good point. I didn’t think of that. I guess for a lot of serial killers they don’t have anything better to do. They’re in prison forever and bored out of their minds all day and all they can do is confess to random crimes for media attention and for more notoriety in prison.

It’s funny you say that because I’ve already been diagnosed with HPD.