The worst part is: I feel like I want this soo badly but I don’t know if I really want it. The imagination of having someone is the sweetest thing in existence but in all reality, I don’t think that I could handle having someone that close to me… I don’t understand my sexuality, but that’s fine. I’ll just post memes to cope with it and cry into my Blahaj when I need to

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  • pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    17·
    9 hours ago

    Mooooood. One of the few hook ups I’ve had, afterwards, he held me close, little spoon, and ran his finger delicately around my side and abs and told me that was the sexiest part of me and told me I was amazing and it was hard to not burst into tears. I’d never felt attractive before. I’d never felt truly wanted like that before. I don’t think I will again. It’s harder now, when you’ve been starved for affection and touch for so long having a brief glimpse of it is almost worse than never having had it at all. It’ll take a long time to numb back down I think.

  • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldMEnglish
    22·
    20 hours ago

    You’re a cute girl and you are loved! Come here 🤗

    If it is HRT related...

    It could be a monthly cycle thing. I personally get sad, feel weak/achy, and get lower back pain a few days after feeling extra horny. Everyone is different and there can be a million and one different symptoms, but you can get everything besides proper menstruation. At first I thought there might be something wrong, but when I realized they were coming periodically, I felt more at ease.

    • Squished Fly (she/they)@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      21·
      20 hours ago

      Thank you 🤗

      I didn’t consider that it could be the hormonal cycle but yeah, that could very likely be it. I absolutely have noticed several things that would 100% line up with it the last few days

      (Also, you just made me realize that I’ve been on HRT for 6 weeks already. Holy hell, time flies)