busy week, taking a bunch of notes, not much time to talk
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Update on my interview, I got the fucking job! I’ll be back in VR QA as a QA Analyst contracted at 20 hours a week with potential to go full time later in development, they’re paying about £18 ($22.72) - £20 ($25.24) an hour which is amazing as well, I can’t wait to actually have money again… I start in Mid April once I sign the contract (once they have actually written it up fully) and the NDA as well since the game is currently in development. Company seems very well managed too, I am working with two of my best friends from my old job who were absolutely lovely to work with (they actually got me the interview to begin with), so I am super excited to start mid April and to get an eye on the project we are gonna be making.
I am so fucking happy.
Holy shit, congrats! I hope the position treats you well. Things seem to be looking up for you more and more. :D
Congrats
Great news!
Congrats, that’s awesome!
Congrats.
Been a rough week. Friend is going through a crisis and pushing everyone away. I’m simultaneously worried and mad. He kept giving reasons for being mad at us that contradicted his previous reasons, before going no contact with all of us.
I’ve checked his socials here and there to make sure he’s alive. I’m sure he’ll be back but I don’t think I can keep doing this.
My siblings have both already done the thing where they threaten to kill themselves then get mad when I take it seriously. I can’t have a third person doing that.
Sorry if that was heavy. It’s just hard because I love him but I carry all this grief from people who keep telling me they’ll die if I make a wrong move…
Last weekend I finally had my hormones in order after more than two decades of dissociation and discomfort.
It was like I woke up and the descriptions suddenly had a vividness, like someone upped the gain on my qualia. It’s hard to believe that this is what most of you feel every day. It’s such a privilege.
I just kept smelling my spices and enjoying the view outside, and the feeling of cold air on my lungs was amazing. And I could finally just feel OK and relax. The creepiest sensation was being deeply connected to my body and the fear of death it gave me. It’s visceral. How do you guys even deal with this?
Congratulations! I’m so happy for you 💕
Just vibe with how incredible it is to be you; it’s quality over quantity in my view. I deal with it by trying to be the best me I can be and celebrating the brief time I have.
Thanks a lot!
When all this stuff is sorted and straightened out I’m gonna make a move on that wood burning project we started ⭐
Take your time and enjoy yourself, we’ll get that project sorted.
Welp. I got into my design program. It was roughly a 50% chance of getting in so I’m glad. It’s just bittersweet since half of my class isn’t in the BFA.
Honestly thought I’d feel more happy about it, but I guess it’s hard when you’ve exhausted yourself… So now that spring break is happening, I’m giving myself a couple days to unwind and then I’ll start moving ahead with work.
Also trying a dating app. Which sucks. We’ll see if it ends up being a good or bad thing. But for now… I don’t think I’m going to engage in it that much. Feels weird.
Work has been going okay. I’m (unfortunately) getting back into Runescape, so that’s been my main method of passing the time both in the slower parts of my shift plus my weekends. I’m getting coffee with my big sister this coming weekend and, barring any last-minute hesitation, I intend to come out to her. I don’t know how she’ll respond, but she’s always been the one person I can go to with stuff that I don’t feel comfortable talking to my parents about, so I have my fingers crossed.
I hope she supports you!
I hope so, too. I’m also hoping that she’ll help me with makeup and shopping because I’m clueless. 😭
I’m wishing you the best regardless of what you end up deciding to do.
Thank you 💜
Hey! How’d things go? Hoping you had a really great time with your sis
Hey! I was waiting for the next weekly update thread to come up, but I think Alyaza is otherwise occupied. Things went better than I ever could have hoped. She’s completely accepting. Shoot, she might even be more excited about the whole thing than I am!
She said she’d probably have a lot of questions, which I’m obviously cool with. She loves the name I’m probably going to go with. She’s down for clothes shopping, but I’m on my own with makeup because all she’s ever used is mascara and eyeliner. What really got me was what happened the day after. We had Easter Sunday dinner at my mom’s house. She showed up after I did, and she had a bag with her that she put in my car. I opened it when I got home to find that it was full of some of her old clothes + some extra makeup supplies. I genuinely couldn’t have asked for more from her. 😭
I was too, but that’s a huge step you took and I wanted to cheer you on! I’m so glad she’s into it and so supportive, and her gesture on Easter is truly amazing and so respectful.
My wife is in the same boat, in that she really only does mascara and eyeliner, but she watches makeup tutorials from people like Trixie Mattel and practices when we don’t have anywhere to go. I’m sure some other folks will be able to point you to other good resources as well.
Anyway, YAY and CONGRATS!
Work on Beehaw is inspirational and exciting. So, happy to be(e) a part of this project!
Too much responsibility, too many expectations. Even when I’m not working I feel it. I need a long vacation.
Struggling to get over a lingering cold this week, but pretty much good other than that!
Have a good week everyone!
Hope you’re feeling better!
It’s going okay. Tuesday was very difficult for me due to some sad dreams that just set the course for the rest of my morning. I’m very lucky to work a job where I’m able to take off if I need a mental health day, so I took advantage of that at wife’s insistence. Yesterday was better, and today is “fine” so I’m just looking forward to the weekend now. Haven’t worked out this week so I’m going to make sure to do something today, but the after-work walks with wife help get us moving and transition into a calmer evening, so it’s not a total wash, exercise-wise. The plan for today is listen to music that makes me happy, drink more water, no alcohol, and carry on.
Really annoyed to find out that Google Play credit must entirely cover an app purchase or else it doesn’t get used at all. Oh, well. There are innumerable worse injustices out there.
Wait, it does? I could’ve sworn I used to use partial credit back when I was doing their rewards program thing.
I’m still doing those surveys, which are probably not worth the cost any more given the amount of data they’ve got on me now lol.
Yes, I distinctly remember Play credit being able to get consumed to partially pay for orders, but I couldn’t get it to cover part of a recent purchase I made no matter what I tried. I wonder if it had something to do with the fact that I was already using a $2-off->$2-app promo…
I think my stomach might be getting better so that’s cool. We get Friday off work so thats also cool. Otherwise not much is going on, for better or for worse lol
Power’s been out since Saturday evening, and we’re one of three houses on our street that don’t have a whole-house hookup for our generator (my whole life is currently genny whine). Spent the last few days admiring and appreciating how our little neighborhood (19 houses) in the woods comes together for mutual aid so seamlessly. Our next door neighbor and I went out the night of the storm to clear debris from the road so folks could get out for any emergency supplies and so the crews could get in quicker, as well as to report any hazards on the lines. Everybody’s been checking on everybody to make sure needs are met.
I had reached out to some friends last week, looking for some pretty specific plants and offering some of our plants in trade, and were able to find a few of what we were looking for. One source surprised us, and hit me right in the feels. Apparently a friend of a friend does maintenance in Ganny’s Garden, part of the Kennebunkport conservation trust and Barbara Bush’s memorial garden, and she’s offered us plants from when they do their early season thinnings. The punk in me is excited to knick some plants from the Bush’s, but the quiet bookworm in me remembers a childhood trip to the Wells library with my grandmother where Barbara showed up unexpectedly, read to us, and handed out books left and right. It feels incredible to have the opportunity to literally plant that memory with my grandmother in the garden this year.
Work still sucks. Still applying elsewhere. Still studying for the A+ cert. It feels hopeless. Even if I get the cert I’m still in competition with all these highly technical people who worked at like Google and Facebook.
I wish you good luck! I think about that competition aspect a lot. It makes me hesitant to even try to learn new skills, but I know I’ll probably need to in order to also escape my current work situation. So good on you for applying yourself!
Went to a bunch of shows last weekend. Of note, Saturday night was amazing, I got to see 2 good friends DJ at one venue and then when they finished we made our way out to the forest rave to see another friend spin. A recent first date (three days prior) mentioned they didn’t get out enough so I invited them to come, and despite having never been to a rave they showed up! We ended up staying at the forest all night long. It’s the first time in years I’ve truly pulled an all nighter on purpose and not due to bad insomnia and it was wonderful and magical in all the right ways. I’m not certain whether it left me sick (I was feeling worse yesterday) or my body is just still recovering, but it was completely worth it.
