As in your never understood by anyone, you don’t fit in anywhere, nobody cares about you, you have no one in your life, no friends, no connections, nothing, all the common advice doesn’t work for you (i.e. distract yourself, take a walk, go to therapy, etc.), you have terrible luck, you can barely find a job, your broken inside, your mind is constantly rotting, you can’t do anything properly, your stuck in a shitty society and or an abusive household, etc. how do you survive? How do you properly bottle everything up without bursting or going insane in a situation like that?
Your assuming and interpreting a lot there, guess I should’ve worded things differently, my bad. Also you don’t know me, you don’t know what I’ve been through, what I’m still going through, you have no idea how unlucky I’ve been with everything, how many times I’ve tried and have only been hurt over and over again as a result. Let me make this clear: I did not fucking ask to be stuck in this “self limiting loop” and have been bashing my head against a wall for years desperately trying to get out but can’t, no need to rub salt in my wounds, I’m just asking for your own experiences and perspectives here, nothing more, nothing less, might help, might not, I don’t know.
That aside: thanks for sharing.